sometimes

you just want to scream out loud....  and it's not just about grief.  it's about life.  it's challenging and unfair and so much of it really sucks.  just sucks.  and you hold it in because you know some think you lack class if you share too much out loud.  and you begin to feel sick inside.  and you wonder if you will always feel sick inside.  and you wonder how you can feel healthy inside.  will you ever feel good again?