rough days

some days are just plain rougher than others when you are dealing with the loss of you child.  on Friday, I just was in tears off & on all day.  there was absolutely nothing that set it off.  I was just unable to control the tears.    it's hard when you are out in public and it hits.   and there is nothing you can do except seek out a restroom for some privacy...

every day is hell, to be honest.  but I have periods of time where i'm busy and i'm even enjoying myself with friends or family.  but there's just an underlying knowledge of hell...