today was ok. as ok as it could be.
does an amputee ever really get used to their missing leg? but they get used to it enough that they function. and i would take losing both my legs over losing my son any day.... of course....
today i talked gardens and parenting with other moms... spent time at co-op, then soccer practice... was busy.
i smiled. i laughed. i cried briefly, twice.
Nolan is not here. that is so wrong, but it is such a horrible, horrible fact. so i have to put one foot in front of the other and just try for some happiness. but gosh, i miss him so much.
what a comparison: an amputee losing a body part and you losing your son. our kids are like our body parts, aren't they? please keep writing and posting pictures. i love seeing him again. i cry on the way to your house and on the way home but don't want you to feel like you have to take care of me when i am trying to help take care of you. i love you, friend.
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