today i feel like wallowing in my sadness. i read these books about finding grace in my grief. i read about being strong. i TRY to be strong, most of the time. i have these wonderful children who must, must, must continue to live life. and therefore, i try to be strong for them. but today, i feel like wallowing in my grief. i feel like crawling into my bed, pulling up the covers, and sobbing. i won't. i can't. i have to do school iwth the kids, deal with a 2 year old who is very demanding, take the kids to a playdate, then take two kids to soccer practices... after that, home for dinner & then i must start taxes... no, today is NOT a day that i get to wallow... but i feel like it. i miss Nolan so much. everything about his death is wrong, wrong, wrong.... it's not fair. period.
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