I ask for signs and I do not get them.
Some would beg to differ as I have shared a couple stories of touching coincidences. Although the coincidences felt like a small gift from my son, these weren't quite the signs that I hoped for.
Stories abound of visits in the night during a state of sleep or scents that could only be some supernatural or sounds or feelings.
I have had nothing like that. Nothing.
I have prayed to God and asked for something, even just some sort of comfort. I tried praying and praying in the beginning. I felt empty. I stopped praying.
It makes it hard to have faith.
A mother who loses her child like I did needs something, SOMETHING! If there is a God who cares, you would think He would be sympathetic.
But no.
Nothing.
