i miss Nolan

It gets worse.... the missing Nolan.  Not easier.  I feel sick to my stomach when I think of never talking to, hugging, kissing, watching, listening to Nolan again.  I feel sick as I get further and further from the last time we talked, touched, just were together.   It's worse.  Not better.  You can't get this, understand this, if you haven't lost a child.  It gets worse