Saturday, March 30, 2013

Easter Saturday

i told myself it wouldn't be as hard as other holidays because Easter is about the resurrection,  about hope....but,alas, i was mistaken....today has been a very dreary day for me.  I'm sure part of it is that i have been home all day, something i used to love...I've also been alone here and there today.  again, i used to cherish my alone time, now i dread being alone.  so i think that contributed to my dark mood.  I'm sad,I'm filled with a longing that can not be fulfilled.  i have turned away from prayer,except the family prayers,the accusatory prayers, the why me?  perhaps this Easter weekend i Will turn my heart back towards Christ even though I'm angry at Him.  for now, I'm filled with anguish and darkness

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