we have faced a few minor traditions since losing Nolan....Valentine's day, st.Patrick's day parade, ash Wednesday...all with sadness.
I've already thought of things like taking pictures of kids...without my Nolan.. our fall pictures at loose park that we taken Nolan was ten months old....without him. Easter is this weekend....pictures...taking their pictures... all that we do.
that is one reason i decided to do something different. we're invited to spend Easter with some friends who have a huge family...i said yes because i thought that this year different is good. the kids will still have their Easter morning hunt for their baskets...we will dye eggs together. of course,we will attend mass to celebrate Easter. so most traditions remain. but it is all forever changed. i remember Nolan running outside last Easter in shorts even though it was cold. i had bought each child a big ball and out them in the back like giant Easter eggs. i bought four this year. i should have bought five
i can't tell you how much the number 4 is killing me lately with you. when i got you the passports to adventure, i felt like a jerk for not picking up 5. i sat and cried about it. i HATED handing patrick only 4. i hated doing the math on the oatmeal cream pies you brought over. know that i do not forget nolan and never will.
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