Saturday, February 2, 2013

dreams

i wake up from my teeny bit of sleep each day and do not remember dreaming.  perhaps I'm not.  I'm sleeping so little.   maybe I'm getting any of that stage of sleep.  i just wish I'd have some Nolan dreams, even if it disappoints me to wake up and find myself back in reality with no Nolan.  i just need something to hold on to.  i have heard people talk about feeling the presence of their loved one or have visions that seem real...why can't i?   Nolan's absence is so absolute.

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  1. It will take a long time to dream of nolan ....I think that is just how our minds work ......I only this past year dream of my dad..and I think when we have so little sleep we don't dream.....there is a new book by the guy who wrote awakenings Oliver Sachs it is called hallucinations ..I have not read it only reviews I plan to ..as he speaks of seeing things that remind us of the person who is gone or seeing someone with a hat or looks like them etc...and it is our minds....sounds plausible to me I know it has happened to me right after my dad died I said "oh please daddy give me a sign to let me know you are okay".....a few days later I was shopping and I looked at the ground after I got out of the car and there was an envelope ...with some money in it a few dollars not a lot I looked around to see who might have dropped it and nobody was there....then all of a sudden I remembered when I was a little girl my dad telling me to always look on the ground when you are walking you might find some money or something....he was a milkman and one day I went with him and found a dollar I was so excited....so to me that was Matt telling me he was okay...I have that money in a special spot in my drawer.....so that might be something you might ponder on jill

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  2. Thank you candy. I too have been asking Nolan for a sign and just haven't had one :-(

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  3. You will trust me ....it might not be right away ..but when you least expect it.....

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  4. Lovely.. :) Without dreams,why we live our life ahh...:)
    ;)

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