grieving parents

I've joined two Facebook support groups for grieving parents.  there's something to be said for finding solace with others who have experienced same horror...because it is a horror that your closest,most supportive friends cannot imagine no matter how supportive they are.  lucky for them.

some are comforting....parents who are now five years down the road who give hope.

others not so much.....eight years later and still barely functioning.

i know that thirty years from now i will still hurt, i Will miss Nolan, i Will hate that he isn't here.  but i do pray that our family Will be joyful at times, that we Will be close to God, that we do function as we should.  the hole Will forever be here.  but i hope to feel even more strongly Nolan's presence in my heart.