i live in a state of constant horror now. i awaken with a feeling of misery, pain, yet disbelief. i still have a vague sense of shock enveloping me. i will imagine Nolan in life and it will hit me like a ton of bricks that he is gone. there is this hazy blanket, a fog, shading all i do. I'm still finding it hard to function each day. the routine tasks like paying bills,returning library books, are forgotten. i want to forget the reality of it. i zone out as i browse online, watch tv...i don't forget,but i try to.
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