how can the world be beautiful now

The world has so much beauty, yet the ugliness of Nolan 's death blatantly stares me in the face every second of every day.  I saw a lovely pink sunset this evening from my patio and my heart was breaking as I looked at it.  Nolan 's lifeless body is such a horror to me.  My sweet beautiful boy who was always quick with a smile, a joke, a laugh, a big....taken from me.  A horror.  Yet the world continues to have beauty.  I just can't quite reconcile that