I'm tired of never being able to just wallow in my grief.
I always have to be on duty for my kids.
I can never just stay in bed all day even though I want to.
I always have to take the kids places, nearly every day. There's no time to just be sad.
Don't get me wrong, I am always sad.
I just never get to just BE.
I'm grateful that I have my other children, please do not think otherwise. I'm so grateful. I know they are the only reason I am surviving. I'm so thankful that they are here for me to take to activities one, two, three, and four.
However, grief is exhausting.
exhausting
sometimes I just want to call in sick, but I can't. i'm a mom.
Those Nyquil commercials, the ones where the parents are calling in sick to their kids- not- is so true. When you are a parent you never get a day off- and grief never happens at convenient times.....
ReplyDeletethe kids are big enough that they do give me space at times now, but then there is the guilt for needing it
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